So Lost i Feel Disaranged (feat. Moezer & Deadlilium)

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Harmurphyy

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Looking in the mirror
See blame my face
I count my days
Everyone seams grey
Every move I make on my own
Like all I am and feel like I'm alone
It's a product of this place
So I cant think straight
Got a demon in my ear
I can never get away
Back thoughts bad thoughts
It's causing my mistake
Back drops
So lost I feal disarranged
Empathy missing from me since a young age
I'm just sociopathic feeling like a simulate
With no host thing I'll go ghost
Mental health slipping to an all-time low
No one played attention to the for shadow
Now here I am sitting alone
With the gun up to my dome
Didn't know how to express
All the pain I had in my chest
Didn't want to cause you stress
But when you ask, I was
I said I was fine and left out all the rest
I don't like doing anything any more
Like nothing makes me happy
I don't like anyone
I even told one of my therapists at one point
I said I just don't want to feal anything
Like I kind of envy sociopaths
Because they don't have to ever worrying about feeling shit
I kind of want that
And she's like so you don't want to be a human being
And I was like yep that's what I want
Its like walking over into the corner
And going I'm just going to lay down here and die
And its not even like I'm going to kill my self
It's just going to go over here and not eat anything or drink anything
I'm just going to lay here and not talk to anybody
And do this till I die
That's what depression is
Isolation makes me feal like the issue in the situation
I remember dwelling with my demons in the college dorm room
Me myself and I questioning the point of life
Or should I just die
Dam
Loneliness is one son of a bitch it will put your mental in a ditch
I still struggle with it to this day
Always feeling like a trough away
Take it day by day
Never fully healing from the pain
Smile and say I'm great
Doing great
Can anybody hear me
I have been staring at this wall for like 3 days straight
And I can't find the answer in the liquor but it makes me feal a little bit better
Any thing to help me forget the mistakes I don't have the courage to face
Cause my hart aches every dark day like I am stuck out of space
Looking in the mirror
See blame my face
I count my days
Everyone seams grey
Every move I make on my own
Like all I am and feel like I'm alone
It's a product of this place
So, I can't think straight
Got a demon in my ear
I can never get away
Back thoughts bad thoughts
It's causing my mistake
Back drops
So lost I feal disarranged
Rest in peace Chester
Rest in peace everybody else that never made it
I mean I wish I had the answers for y'all
But I don't
Just take it one day at a time
Wright
At least that's what they keep telling me
But I don't know
I mean shit
I hope y'all figure it out
And hope y'all find some peace
Good luck

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