Guilt

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Who am I
Coz I'm unable to feel like me
You said that I'm a nice guy
But I don't see no goodness inside of me
They say that we've got two sides is it the reason for these voices in my mind
But i can't see the angel, only the devil tellin me every wrong is right
Ya
Tell me do I mean something? what do I signify
They tryna break me down give me a reason so I could fortify
Them or me I don't know anymore who's real who should I prioritise
I wear a camouflage everywhere I go it's draining faking every smile
Yah

Late nights
But I'm wide awake
I do feel alone
But I'm scared to say
Too afraid
They might start seeing me different
So I lock that feel in this cage in my brain
But its getting worse
Can't hold it in anymore
They starting to retaliate
I can feel them bursting out my eyes
At nights though I don't see no one tryna help me out of my despair
I put my heart in a cage but tell me is it where its supposed to be
They tell me that I should trust more should I hand them the map to the key
Been hiding behind my smile remember you told me we were playing hide and seek
But I've been waiting for so long nobody showed up who's turn is it
Huh

Why do I push away the ones I love when I need them the most
Why am I always looking for the reason for my pain with eyes closed
Feeling empty feeling hollow yes I feel the most when my minds numb
Why my thoughts so loud can't hear a thing other than consent for myself
Wake up everyday knowing what I'm gon' do
Just sit and hate myself regret a thing or two
Feel insane so laugh out loud
Cry in pain but then shut my mouth
I don't wanna feel like everything I ever said to keep them from leaving made me sound so desperate
All the attempts to hold onto a little bit of company only paid off to gift me embarrassment
I'm vulnerable but I don't want to put that kind of picture up on my Instagram
Why do I feel worthless
While all I want to do is I wanna be myself
I wanna rip off all these fabrications and show everybody who I am
But I can't
Ya I can't
Why
Why
I need some answers need to know what's wrong
When did I take this turn when I was just drifting on life's road
I don't see me when I look at you rather someone else someone new
Someone  standing right in front of me but still feel thousands of miles apart

Why you makin me manifest all these colours that I don't even have in me
Thats why I look at my shadow more trynna live it all black dark is the only place where I can see
I don't like you acting traumatised with things that are just in your head and are not even real
If you feeling anxious why don't you get some rest and go to sleep
Why do you have to act tough every single second of the day theres no one to impress
Why you dressed!? Loosen up only thing you gonna do is overthink and suffocate by stress
Its the same clothes everywhere you go dressed in all black
I cant even recognise the person I'm seeing right now I think I don't even know myself
Yah

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