Eulogy.Rebirth
Kal Fontaine
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Just so you know It hurts me to do this But you destroyed me You were tearing me apart It's been 7 years You know me by now You should've expected retaliation You are the most abusive person I've ever known I fucked up, sure But at least I admit it You refuse to admit your mistakes So let me remind you of who you are In words you can comprehend This is your suicide note You'd never write it to tell the full story So let's start with your point of view Stop taunting me with the death and just do it Everytime you say something to me I just knew it That everything that came out of your mouth was complete bullshit I try to understand with everything I am, the delicate nature of this The mental illness, the bipolar, the mood changes, I've had enough of it I try to be by your side but I just can't do it I'm so messed up as a person, this heavy life of a narcissist I refuse to believe it, to become it, to learn from it A letter from me to you, the new you, the new me, the harsh view From the top of the tallest memories I have of you The person you were before me The person that stands before me The person you were without me I can't stand it, I can't tolerate it I said I want you to be miserable and I meant it I mask everything as if your mental health is important to me But in the reality it's completely something that's not real to me I know it hurts you but I don't care I'm there, you're here, and that's all that I need And it doesn't matter what you say or do, it's what I believe To be true, because without you I'd still be suffering on a couch in my mothers bedroom Or sleeping in my ex husbands living room I can't be without you I can't imagine my life without you But for some reason I can't stop fucking hurting you And I just can't join you Where you are, even though its far, I can't get in my car And pick up everything I have Because you're too unstable for me And you have your faults And it's your fault Everything is your fault I can't accept that I'm wrong I can't accept that you're right Because at the end of the night, I have to be the one talking down to you I have to hide that I enjoy the fact that you have this mental illness And I hide it just so I can use it to victimize myself when you need help Redirect the light from the darkness into my own blackness of night So when you are trying to put up a fight against me I can immediately turn it all around on you And blame you for everything that I did wrong It's the reason I need you Because I can't accept responsibility for me I need you to be wrong I need you to believe that I'm the best thing to ever happen to you So I can be lifted just to remind you That I'm better than you because my father figure failed me And I barely have any family So no one can teach me Even though you tried And I know that you lied so many times I know that you struggled too But I had to use you For my own truths But now the weight is too much to carry And I could never find the strength to apologize to us both I saw so many things in you that showed So much fucking hope And even when you went into the hospital I used it to elevate myself I know it's fucked up and I'll never admit it I can't ever give you the advantage so f*ck it We both are evil in our own ways But I'm done trying I'm done trying to live this lie So please take this depressing time And write down everything you ever wanted of me So when they lay me down to be buried I can take your words down with me I fucked up so badly And I know you won't forgive me No one can hear my cries and screams from six feet deep Except you, but after my sins I know you'll block out the real me Because there isn't anyone I could truly show that too So there isn't anything else left to do Except put my head through this noose I know you wanted me too I guess this is the last time I'll speak to you This world was truly so far beyond Please let Emily know I'm sorry and I'm gone I never wanted this life for her But I know she will be so much better with him Even though I can't stand him for turning her against me I can't bare to live in this life anymore with the pain that I caused Everything I did to you will always haunt me I knew that you would always be there for me But I pushed you away and that was the end of us I used my body to control the lust Because I didn't have anything else to offer Besides my own insecurities So lower me down into my grave Leave me alone and give me some grace I know that you will always hate me But Please know that I'm sorry I know I never said it before to you But I regret what I did to you We were both victims We were both murderers We died in slow motion Just know that I will always love you I purposely hung myself in your house so only you would find me Because metaphorically You were the only one who ever loved me So keep the image of my body swaying in your memory It's the last time you'll see me I'm so sorry And I love you I will always love you
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