Double Down
J.B.
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I guess I'm still alive Would be even if I tried But I almost died Symptomatic of Suicide Yeah Go to the bathroom then I hide To slit my wrists open wide Yeah Would you do the same in a position as am I It's been a scary year I wipe my tears Filled with fear And I've had it up to here Dealing with shit But I conquered Here Take your star and take your ribbon Con-grad-a-fucking lations Welcome to adult life Cuz no one fucking cares (Ah) Went to the counselor The following afternoon (Noon) Had to tell my parents right out of the blue (Blue) I'm mentally ill Have no will To survive after this shit And then that begged the question Why would you do what you do But not specifically It was cuz I cut my wrists Why don't I know my worth if I pulled in a chick (Chick) "Is it worth it for a girl?" Asked my Mom Yeah I was wrong But I was 15 at the time And I don't say this for the rhyme Cuz the day was really specific 2018 August 1st But I slit my wrist on July 31 Yeah And we remodeled our bathroom But the memories remain It's so hard to wanna stay When the scars don't go away (Way) November 2017 Had my first panic attack So sad my pastor didn't give a crap I was talking to my girl Through snapchat Bout how to cope when she going through some flack Yeah God matters But I wanna fucking help Before something worse may happen Cuz you just may never know And that may sound farfetched When you're 14 Tryna solve Some family fucking problems but you don't know how to resolve And ever since that day In every single relationship I have a panic attack a day because the ex was kinda shit At helping me love myself Had no confidence for 2 years straight Then I met Jocelyn, who helped me through my ways And I apologize for what I did Cuz you didn't deserve that shit And if you never forgive me Then I completely understand And you may hear it through this song Before you get a text And I'm not one to admit I'm sometimes very petty But cutting off when we dated Was a huge mistake Cuz to this day I still regret it How I ended things October 2017 Hey Mom I met a girl Gotta get shit ready for Hoco 2 months later Hang out again Drink hot cocoa and snuggling Never felt more protected At the time my brain wasn't functioning So I was quite nervous to do anything Never woulda thought pushovers got treated like shit I was 14 at the time Now I'm 17 Writing up this shit during quarantine Told myself I'd never write about a whore again But I gotta move on from the past of my life So Hate to break it to ya ****** I'd rather learn how to play church organs Or donate one to an orphan Or have a fucking abortion Stick a fork in an orifice I was born again like Notorious BIG And I still have some wounds to heal But I opened them like a heated oven And I know we resolved things But I still am kinda sour Cuz I'm sure you cheated on me with that fa**** ********* ***** And at the time At the hour You opened me up to new things But never made me feel loved And not during arguments I need reassurance Or else I just can't handle it Sometimes the thought of dying seems much more ignorant But why is that my go-to Cuz I'm too pussy to handle things Yeah Why do I rap so serious Cuz I'm not into bling But 4 minutes later And I Can't describe my life Still This shit makes me feel ill I need to take a chill pill Cuz if I die tomorrow I never lived how I really wanna And making a living is my objective But making music to save some lives is more motherfuckin important And I guess this was my diary From 4 years ago till now And just in case This is it Let me take my final bow Cuz I love you all and I never wanna leave But sometimes shit really gets to me But I swear to God behind me Is a real life man with priorities And sometimes things get into the way But my only hope is to just stop and pray And I never wish my life away But I only want to rid my pain And I swear this shit isn't a gimmick it's just real life me spitting on a couple beats I hope one day Y'all understand My music lives through you and me vicariously And I want to be a celebrity But my only worries right now is surviving I just wanna live I think I got this If I don't at least I tried And Thanks to my environment For giving me the encouragement And I hope you all are thriving Cuz this is the shit I take seriously Keep it engrained in my brain Till the final day When I take my last breath Please just remember me
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