Patience
Numadik
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Holding onto something That keeps on crushing my soul Wishing I could let it go Trusting it releases the hold It's got on me It's got on me Dug in deep Ever since I lost everything That I dreamed Seems so long ago, that I believed I would be a greater version of the current me But currently I see it differently I built a kingdom Took over a decade I filled the hole that my human condition made Through all the blood, sweat And the headaches I broke my body for a trust in the future's sake I had to mediate The cost of my mistakes I had to concentrate all my faith on myself Vision clear like glass that cracks bird's necks but don't break Faith in myself No one else Full send tactic Felt the choice was absent Committed myself to repeat the same actions To build a skill, chase my dream and finally catch it I had to believe that my beliefs would hold traction That's what I thought it would take Laid my eggs in a basket Left me without options when the eggs got to crackin Asking God with my head tilted towards the heavens Why was I abandoned by my brethren Felt I betrayed my collection of ideals as if I hadn't met em' As if God himself vetted my direction Left me in the mud beheaded Just a naked fetid corpse so pathetic So pathetic Passers by indifferent And numb to the aesthetic Too paralyzed to even scream for a medic I couldn't get it I kicked a dead horse until my legs were sore Man, this is not what I expected To occur Was always told hard work Would pay off in the end But no one ever said Anything about the trap that lay ahead Unforeseen consequences to strippin' the thread That what you once loved You may never love again Gone forever Impossible to pretend That I'm not Crushed by this That I'm not Holding onto something Change is inevitable Resisting against that change Causes great pain And I can only Speak on that from experience I know Loudy can speak from that too He brought up this concept for this song Cuz I made a beat I was listening to some J Cole kinda interlude/instrumental type Type beat And uh Found out that we had some similarities Not the same story, but some similarities About change And how life forces change upon you And I don't know I've been resisting change for a long time And realized I was the one who needed to change I can't believe after all this time I'm still holding on I wonder if this life is one my spirit voted on My soul is tired As I run this marathon I hate expectations, and they want me to be a paragon And I'll be the first to say that I'm far from perfect I trust God got my back, but even then I'm not so certain I close my mouth Cuz I don't want to be a burden Others putting on an act and I just want to close the curtains You know how in cartoons They got that motherfucker that That pulls somebody off the stage with a hook That's me right now I'm just tired of the bullshit I'm tired of the theatrics Like everybody fake as f*ck, I swear Everybody putting on an act It's like Man, and I can see it too That's what's crazy is like As I'm talking to somebody everybody is caught up in their own life And it's like I'll never actually get to like Y'all will never feel me like that I used to give a f*ck what others thought about me Now I'm saying f*ck that, I'm not sorry I'm thinking 'bout all the shit that I let drain me I'm thinking 'bout the people close to me who tried to change me I think about why I'm such an asshole I think my mind is trapped in the back of a large black hole I get inside my car to clear my mind and hear Mac Miller I wonder if he was still here, and never met his dealer I wonder if I've lived this life and that's my deja vu I wonder if I've ever died and God out here dropping some clues I wonder if you think about me as much as I think of you I say I'm fine But every time my eyes screaming it's not true Honestly I tell myself that's just how it is I try to control things and just know things and that's how I let that shit slip I cried when Adam Sandler had a control and Would f*ck around and press skip If I had a remote, would I let go Settle down and just live Or would I press pause to cover my flaws Cuz some of my flaws conflict with the law Or would go back to cover my tracks I think it's a trap, I wake up, see Saw Maybe I'm the one who did this I'm looking in the mirror and I want to kill the witness Damn I cried for everyone who lost the war to this illness I try to talk it out but everyone about their own business Like everybody only care about themselves man So do you So if I do me And You call me selfish but You are a hypocrite I think I went too far I think I need a hypnotist Cuz now I'm talking out my ass Where's the ventriloquist I only wanted love and that's why I'm an exhibitionist Like for real, I'm just acting out You know, just to be heard or something But nobody cares man For real it feels like nobody care man So why the f*ck am I holding on I'm fucking tired of holding on Holding onto something That keeps on crushing my soul Wishing I could let it go Trusting it releases the hold It's got on me It's got on me Dug in deep Ever since I lost everything That I dreamed Seems so long ago, that I believed I would be a greater version of the current me But currently I see it differently
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Written by: Jack Lewaren, Jeffrey Strening
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