Pain

I'd rather die than see you again I'd rather die than still be your friend I'd rather die than see how this ends I'd rather die than start life again Pain, pain, pain, pain, pain, pain, pain, pain Everyone I grew up with disappointed that I ain't die yet Cuz I ain't try yet I'm not alive yet I tell ya They'll all talk about what a shame it is But don't feel sorry for me I deserved all of this So why did none of you ever reach out Why were you all deaf to my hoarse shouts One percent boy ninety nine percent doubt Don't be surprised if I take an early out Always threw away everything that I had Always wished that I had reasons to be sad I'm barely hanging on by a strand I bury all of my hope in quicksand I'd rather die than see you again I'd rather die than still be your friend I'd rather die than see how this ends I'd rather die than start life again Pain, pain, pain, pain, pain, pain, pain, pain I hope they open my eyes in that casket I'll stare right through you know you cant mask it My soul will ensure your future is tragic The stress from my death will cement your habits When I kill myself don't come to my service I hope you remain forever so nervous You will get over it quickly I promise That's the one line where I'm totally honest I want to start over Leave all you behind Change my name and my residence I'll be forgotten in time I'm just returning the things that you have given me Stress and depression and hatred and envy Just like Jesus I loved all of my enemies Bible to sleep, then organ failure remedy I give up, I finally just had enough Deleted that music stuff Around my throat is a hand cuff I don't ever want to see my face again I'll burn it off instead I'll turn my mattress red Disfigured but not yet dead I'd rather die than see you again I'd rather die than still be your friend I'd rather die than see how this ends I'd rather die than start life again Pain, pain, pain, pain, pain, pain, pain, pain Pain is knowing that you exist Pain is knowing I'm too scared to exit Pain is knowing this will come again Pain is knowing I'll push away every friend Pain is knowing that I am me Pain is knowing that I don't know me Pain is knowing that I can't change me Pain is knowing