Pieces Mended

As I bridge the gap between my future and past I see that choices made lead me down the same path An endless cycle full of twists and turns I reflect on lessons that I wish I learned I got more thoughts and theories then questions answered Impossible queries and the burdens they carry The scenery varies but the results don't change I could halt the pain but the fault remains The current builds until a surge reveals That I'm powerless now as I ever was then But I prefer to pretend that all those pieces mend If I just keep 'em hidden and leave the memories with 'em But what a fool I've been Oh the wool I've seen Pulled tight, withholding light But the bliss has faded till whats left is hated. If I could save myself I wouldn't need your help To pick the pieces up and mend my heart If I could save myself I wouldn't ask for help To pick the pieces up and make me whole Why, why do we fall To never rise up from that pain Why oh why Why can't we break those chains Our hearts can be changed Mr. Humpty Dumpty tried to scale those walls But as the story goes we know he had to fall I've always lacked resolve, when backed up I cracked up Disaster calls, I'm fast to the crash of A fools exposure, flaws out open Wisdom disposed of, a cost I've chosen I paused at hopeless and lost my focus I drowned unnoticed till I found my quotient Now I'm primed and ready, my legs are steady I found my heading so its onward bound All the winds have changed, I savor the favor A little longer now and I'll be off the ground I walked the crowd until I lost my crown A foster child but I'm adopted now Wings spread, don't wanna spoil the rest But keep your eyes to the sky to see me flying blessed If I could save myself I wouldn't need your help To pick the pieces up and mend my heart If I could save myself I wouldn't ask for help To pick the pieces up and make me whole Why, why do we fall To never rise up from that pain Why oh why Why can't we break those chains Our hearts can be changed I can always find my way back home Long as the light stays on know I'ma stay on course Feels good to say at last I've grown That the wrong I've known no longer hides my heart I know I'm far from finished I know I'm far from win it But with the scars diminished now I can start to replenish The parts were mended so the pain's relented The spark was tended now a flames ascending What a fitting ending to a profound beginning And up around the bend I hear the sound of winning Feet to ground I'm in it I see a crown descending And I'm allowed to wear it cause what you said you meant it Cause you bled in splendor I'm running towards the change Made my bed in winter, you forced away the rain Laid to rest a sinner I'm reborn a saint Saved the best for dinner I got now more complaints But I got more to say I cant afford to Lay back or stay back indebted to pay back The poor man's wage it implores to grace To restore this place all the way back to way back I wouldn't trade today for the pearly gates Might be a world away I know its worth the wait But I'm assured by faith that every hurt will fade And every worst mistake can be a first embrace So I pursue this end through all the wind and waves And its a learning curve to try and do the right thing When the earth was cursed we all lost our mercy Now we sow and reap and we all know what's thirst But you amend our state to what we once deserved And your heart preserves every child who serves So I'ma burn my brightest until the end of time This little light of mine is gonna continue to shine