Father

Days till we decease decrease as time goes on One day you're right next to them, (snap) then they're gone Stings from the distance, but the memories still carry on Look towards the light, he fights, finally calm Push aside, I just cry, and try, to flee and run Standby, asking why, he died, Your Will be done Strong ties, with a life, resides, his flesh and blood I sigh, mesmorized, the lies, fill up my tongue My dad died, by the time, I arrived, couldn't say bye His lungs fried, by some medicine a dentist shouldn't prescribe Some carelessness by a man Really cost me my father Sueing, but money won't bring him back So why even bother Septocane substitutes as a nova replacement There's no replacing my only dad, so why did you take him I don't understand your plan, but I'm trying To trust you You've always been there when I needed you most to come through It's a blessing that I saw him two days prior Cause a virus Took the small moments that we shared with similar athletic desires I reminisce on the times you would watch me play ball The nervousness crept up on me in between every call The whole time, in my mind, I just want impress you Hopefully you were blessed to Have a son to attest to I hope that you're proud of who I have become When it's set and done When you sit around and ponder God why did you take my father! Lord, Lord, Lord Free my soul from all this hurt My whole life was good with words Can't seem to come to terms With the life you took from me On my knees I beg and plead God... I hope this is the end Of this pain I'm dealing with Rage goes uncaptured This is a snapshot Of what it feels in a Rapture Control is my Master Feeding off of disaster Man this seems super backwards Why do I always revert Never want to converse It keeps on making this worse But Christ still makes me His first And now I see a different side of things You gonna see a different side of me Not picking parts of life, to decide to piece But addressing all sides, for Your eye to see My modesty Breeds from the hardest feats A part of me Don't try to startle me I know I'm weak But ima keep running hard until you work is finished and I'm six feet deep I know my mama crying alongside the couch God only knows I'm tryna figure it out I know we're tempted to hold in the doubt But I know it's so easy to let it slip out My life, I've been set apart My life, I've been on a mission I know that I can end up missing, but the point of the matter is to never give in When things aren't going our way But God still gives me His Grace Death, I never wanna THINK about it But I THINK about it to this day Now I'm trying to figure out where I am Showing to my fam where I stand See You right there holding out Your hand But I hope I'm grabbing it, in time for prayer Now, I'm back tryna think through the back and forth inside my mind I know I should of understood your Holy and unfailed design Lord, I always wanna be your child I still wanna trust in you But it's really hard when I see my dad's dead body there with no function But I know this is time I should give to you I know that you deserve my relentless praise And To praise Your name for a life that was blessing me every single one of my days Lord I represent you in his honor Through you we will not falter I may have lost a dad, but I'll always have my Father Lord, Lord, Lord You freed my soul from all this hurt My whole life was good with words But through You I've come to terms With the life that's gone from me On my knees I beg and plead God... I know this is the end Of this pain I'm dealing with