Rock Bottom, Vol. 3

Another day's dawn Ping from my phone Morning doom scroll Before my Red Bull's even gulped Never feels real If the news isn't bad Curtains down, always To this dark, I'm attached The soundtrack of the morning It's sirens or cussing Gunshots or fireworks Can't really trust shit If it's too quiet I expect a fucking riot Out my window A muted symphony of panic Reaching a crescendo Flames in distance Dreams been steadily Getting more apocalyptic The whole world burns And my only job is to witness Ashes as a souvenir Proof of my existence Blue & White lights stain my vision Can't tell if its an ambulance Taking the almost-dead to God Or Cops following behind to finish The fucking job And apathy is poison When screams settle Into background noise Damn Ever been to rock bottom A place you'll never see Flowers or people ever blossom Need directions I got 'em We all gotta go there You'll know when you're Next in line The only way out is through it It's by design Ever been to rock bottom A place you'll never see Flowers or people ever blossom Need directions I got em We all gotta go there You'll know when you're Next in line The only way out is through it It's by design Welcome to Rock Bottom Some days I just wanna give up Some days I don't wanna wake up I hit rock bottom Out the catacombs Air like cold metal The place where gunpoint Is its own form of hello Teenage firing squads Pack the hallways at school Trace a tear on their face How you know that shit ain't cool Grew up around killers That never met an ant That couldn't get the fuckin boots Don't take kindly to no plants I was never one of them The aim was inward with the hate Made it to 32 Too many candles for a cake Will I see 33 Technically 21 Is when niggas 'sposed to be done With this life shit Death's kiss Why we walk like we're Already ghosts It's called perspective Make due with life's unwanted lessons Wrapped around the neck The kinda wisdom That'll strangle you Relentless Breathing's the only method That you'll ever catching me flexing Why I treat each breath Like it's something I don't deserve Like it's precious I'll hold it close til None of its left Give my exhale away The only things I own now is My name and some acronyms Given by a therapist Inherited pathogens Swimming in my brain So, life and reality stopped Feeling the same, nigga This is poisonous ink splatter Why I'm mostly silent At complimentary chatter Cuz, I don't know how To fake a smile over beats Or paint Sunshine when It's miles outta reach So, fuck it Ever been to rock bottom A place you'll never see Flowers or people ever blossom Need directions I got 'em We all gotta go there You'll know when you're Next in line The only way out is through it It's by design Ever been to rock bottom A place you'll never see Flowers or people ever blossom Need directions I got em We all gotta go there You'll know when you're Next in line The only way out is through it It's by design Welcome to Rock Bottom Some days I just wanna give up Some days I don't wanna wake up I hit rock bottom You either press on or give up The only way to go From here is up I hit rock bottom Some days I just wanna give up Some days I don't wanna wake up I hit rock bottom You either press on or give up The only way to go From here is up I hit rock bottom