Proverbs 19:17

So I was driving I needed some things Like some food and an oil change Some shit like that Watching a homeless man pan handling While he standing on the side of a block And I don't know what kinda life this man has been handling And got me curious if he's been smoking some rocks Although a part of me is feeling for him The other saying just ignore him Gotta focus on myself or I'll end up in his spot So I just sit and meditate and pray for him some better days And hopefully he finds his way or at least find him some socks Now as I'm watching contemplating analyze this situation A brand new corvette pulls up and comes to a stop Like man what a funny thought the both of them 10 feet apart It made me think back to a song by Kendrick Lamar Called how much a dollar cost The question is detrimental paralyzing my thoughts I think he said it best So now I'm trippin as I watch and have the lyrics of that song Running round through my head The man in that vet was starring straight ahead As the homeless man was starting at him In a moment I felt the pressure rise like They were pissed at the position that each other were in Maybe in a different world these two men would be friends But sadly in reality the truth of life sinks in As I continue to watch I feel it take away my grin, trust Another day Another life Another cost Another price Another saying to myself I can't give up I gotta fight As I find the wrong and right See more color than black and white Seeing deeper than the surface That be blocking up your sight So we just get by Look up to a sky that cycles through these days and nights With thoughts on our minds Like do we even have the time To chase these dreams before we die Can't waste it all on what we like Too much going on So guess I'll see if you try So it all keeps going by Feel so many ways I guess that I'll cry I'll cry The longer I sat there Shit just kept getting worse I couldn't stop thinking Still sitting there watching as I was waiting for the light Just waiting for one of them to make a move or maybe fight The thoughts of the choices they might've made to be here Was anything but light but I couldn't stop thinking like Who's had it harder Maybe the man in the vet grinded all his life Just to make it out the poverty line And that's why he's feeling this spite Like if he could do it what be stopping another guy Except he might not know how much it takes to put a man on the street Got nothing to his name not even socks on his feet Standing there with a sign after putting aside his pride Just hoping that someone can help him escape the feelings he's got inside But shit we all got em There's probably some successful people who's had it harder Who's taking all their hardships and made it some wine from water But just like how did they do it Maybe their smarter Maybe they they just had help or Maybe they were pushin harder I don't know We're all different And it shows Got me curious bout myself and what kinda Things it'd take to be next to those People on the corner or those hero's in the methadone Shoutout kid rock for show me some blessings yo But that's just how this story goes Same kinda shit that I was hearing some years ago And like this world it goes around fo sho Right there from that road to my head then out my mouth it's told But all the time I wish that I could do some more Another day Another life Another cost Another price Another saying to myself I can't give up I gotta fight As I find the wrong and right See more color than black and white Seeing deeper than the surface That be blocking up your sight So we just get by Look up to a sky that cycles through these days and nights With thoughts on our minds Like do we even have the time To chase these dreams before we die Can't waste it all on what we like Too much going on So guess I'll see if you try So it all keeps going by Feel so many ways I guess that I'll cry I'll cry See as I kept on looking this shit became less funny And got me kinda pissed off at this idea we call money Cause I'm seeing two of the same breed looking out with the same greed And not giving a fuck of the things that they both need But finally that light turned green Kinda like the kind that homeless man thought he would see Instead I turned right past them while they doing the same old routine And now it was time for me to spend some of mine on some shit I don't need So there I went right past that kfc Pulled into valvoline but man these thoughts were still eating at me Like I couldn't get em past me And all this shit made me feel nasty Like how the fuck am I suppose to see some shit like that and just be happy Must be some empath shit Like I don't even know these men but man it felt like I did Made me wanna repent all my sins And had me thinking of ways we could redo how we live Like holy fuck I can't take it no more and right as I was bout to lose my shit A calm voice said pull up to that bay door Pulled in and got asked in different ways if I could pay more For things that they could give me I told them nah but thank you really So I exchanged em for that oil change And on my way they sent me But as I pulled out I knew I'd be going past that corner Went and got some chicken for myself but nothing extra on that order So now I was the one pulling up to that light I looked over to the homeless man and felt a fear building in my spine This man was covered in facial tattoos They were demonic with upside down crosses That had me worried what he'd do But time was ticking so I know I had to choose It was either be a hypocrite or do Something to help out the dude So I grabbed my wallet there were three ones and a twenty I pulled out the 3 ones cause it was the least that I could do Rolled down my window half way and called for the man He was sitting now looking defeated with head hanging down With sign in hand So when he looked up and saw me gesturing with money He jumped up with an expression that had me feeling kinda funny But when his eyes met mine I saw they were bluer than the sky I felt them pierce right to my heart like he wasn't a normal guy All of a sudden I was stuck looking in them like I was paralyzed Staring up at this man like I had known him my whole life He smiled big and grabbed the money gently Then he put it to me simply He said thank you sir now I definitely have enough to eat And I could hear it in his voice he meant that from somewhere deep I told him no problem and wish I could do more He told me god bless you as I drove off from that light Now nothing sitting right with Strangest feelings I've ever known Had me crying the whole way home Trust Another day Another life Another cost Another price Another saying to myself I can't give up I gotta fight As I find the wrong and right See more color than black and white Seeing deeper than the surface That be blocking up your sight So we just get by Look up to a sky that cycles through these days and nights With thoughts on our minds Like do we even have the time To chase these dreams before we die Can't waste it all on what we like Too much going on So guess I'll see if you try So it all keeps going by Feel so many ways I guess that I'll cry I'll cry Proverbs 19 17 Who ever is kind to the poor Lends to the lord And he shall reward them For what they have done