Thoughts Of The Moment II

Ay, ay If I could somehow let you feel what it's like to be like me I'm gladly allow you to try Yelas think it's so easy when They never see the behind the scenes of the movie called my life Many nights without sleeping just writing my demons down Hoping that some of them leave me alone Yeh I used to like smoking with homies But now I prefer getting high by myself, I don't know Why I be like this, ay, when did I grow So fucking violent, I lost control Time never slow, and the next thing I know I be cutting off people like sorry new phone I've been starving for more money, everyday thinking of new ways to hustle See I believe everything possible Anything I put my mind to I can achieve if I wanted to I know that they say I was born for this When they don't know much I really worked for it Was never birthed with it, I had to work for it had to be persistent no matter what it took Cold winters back in the Six O Four No heating, my toes don't feel anymore Kitchen a stovetop in the garage, I had to bring my food up to the 2nd floor Remember one time I slipped and spilled everything And I still ate it cuz I was broke Liver the cheapest among the lot Taste shitty but ninety nine cents a plug Ay, running away from the pain, from the drugs And it don't help when everything only ten bucks, shit, that's less than meal Dealer the homie, but I'd never blame him for my ordeal Even if I was him, I'd just be plugging me up Hooking me up with whatever I needed for me to feel something I've done it all and done it so much I realized that in the end all of it fucking mean nothing They tripping on something, they telling me They be moving clouds and that they see my aura orange Fuck if I end up like that, had to stop taking acid tabs and smoking DMT Sorry mama don't think I'll ever be coming back But I'm just better now at pretending I'm fine If I could somehow let you feel what it's like to be like me I'm gladly allow you to try Top of my game, I done taught it myself I ain't copy no cat, I ain't ask for no help I been carved by the pain, now my mental unbreakable Gun to my head but the trigger they afraid to pull It ain't debatable who the fucking best is Had to prove it to you, that's unexpected, I know Yelas think I don't remember But my memory clear as day, that's perfect weather Ain't settled with less and they said I'm addicted to money But you see addiction is funny, I'm having a laugh Fuck it, I ain't looking back when I'm going The homies be asking me when I be home when really I ain't know anymore I ain't slowing down so maybe never If I ever see you again, yeh, it better be when we at the top and not at the end Forget it, they won't ever get it, what's the point of me telling em shit? Thick headed bitches, they asking for wisdom But still never listen, just sucking my dick Homies who swim in the deep with me Eventually they get lost in the sea and just drift Don't give a fuck what you think of me I'm too busy just doing my own fucking thing If I could somehow share the pain in me I be happy to all let em have a sip Meanwhile they keep on asking When I be dropping a new single or album next? Daft cuz they never know how it be, but I guess I'm making it look effortless In my element when I ride the rhythm, flow be unforgiving Like it's murderous, yeh, I be turnin heads like Regan Ain't care bout your feelings Ain't care bout the opinions of sheep, I'm a wolf under sheep skin I'm heating seeking when fired up Ain't no dodging this L that I'm about to brand on you I'm pouring this slime in my cup Had to cut the weed cuz I got Korean blood in me I fuck her like it's my last fuck Probably cuz this the first and the last time she'll be seeing me I ain't mean anything by it I just don't have time to wait If you don't know or can't decide, it makes It easier for me to bounce, don't say You missing me, when I don't know your name So many hoes want me to come and save em Sorry but never, this dom ain't breaking I'd rather keep things not complicated They think I'm bluffing till they fall in love Fuck it, if they wanna cut it, then cut it I couldn't care less, whether love me or not It won't stop me moving up, like I'm lighter than air, I'm moonwalking on clouds Where they at now, they nowhere to be found Error four o four you internet clowns The pendulum bounces while I'm just thinking aloud It's like I'm convinced I'm the greatest right now