Its On Me

(Stvrboy) Hello to who is out there Not to worry, I'm not your enemy All I need is seconds of your time I've been searching and I lost my way I've been soul searching And I'm not sure about my progress Dreaming of the days I paid mummas bills But I don't know what day it is Everything I spat is the truth My work ethic came with a cost I'm tired of hurting the ones Who loved me the most? The way I've been fighting lately Stepping in the fire, through the hell of it My demons were my doctors They keep writing scripts for my medicine Pint of jack, perfect depressants I held that prescription in my hands I never shoulda listened to you I could've just turned and ran Two months, and feeling worse I'm thankful I never asked you again It took a tone of convincing To be the one to make the change I just wanna say I'm sorry I'm sorry to my Mumma All the drinks in my draw That's on me, it's on me I just don't want you to worry You don't need to bother All the pain I caused That's on me, it's on me I just wanna say I'm sorry I'm sorry to my Mumma All the drinks in my draw That's on me, it's on me I just don't want you to worry You don't need to bother All the pain I caused That's on me, it's on me I got a call the other day It was my doctor calling to check on me I haven't heard from you in years But I heard you're going through some shit I never shoulda told you maybe I never shoulda picked up the phone Leave me the fuck alone Cause I'm tired of buying all these drinks What does it cost to feel better? I don't care if costs a piece of myself I'll never take a drink again If I ever got to be someone else I'll never catch a case again If I ever received my better day I don't wanna keep apologising I just can't get out my own way But the only things keeping me alive Is the way I get to tell my story And this everlasting drive to succeed And live without a single worry My family wants me alive How come nobody else does Most of you would call this karma This is just how it goes No friends, no one to trust Please don't try to change that My only loyalty is myself And the bars on my notepad An empty bottle of barcadi Sits on top of my wardrobe It makes me feel like I'm not alone Just look how far I've come I just wanna say I'm sorry I'm sorry to my Mumma All the drinks in my draw That's on me, it's on me I just don't want you to worry You don't need to bother All the pain I caused That's on me, it's on me I just wanna say I'm sorry I'm sorry to my Mumma All the drinks in my draw That's on me, it's on me I just don't want you to worry You don't need to bother All the pain I caused That's on me, it's on me