Godspeed (feat. Sanjana Shah)

Rise out of nothing Bid goodbyes to malevolence Gon' fly beyond, above, and then shine free Godspeed Rise out of nothing Bid goodbyes to malevolence Gon' fly beyond, above, and then shine free Godspeed Woke up this morning like a workaholic over-stressing Momma blooming, smiling like a blessing An indiscretion of such, I've been at war with myself And I thought of hugging my demons tighter and drowning my weapons I used to run away, from all the thoughts my brain too often is another cage Like, this is my only shot I can't just put the gun away I've been deserted way too long, forgot my soul has been frozen Now I'm swimming lavas I'm trying to push the sun away Woke up this morning like an alcoholic over-stressing I'm guessing maybe that liquor was crazy I haven't been drinking lately, a phase The puddle I'd been tripping on is now sullied and allayed (Yeah) But I have been patiently waiting, simple as KOTA has put it "Love's a combination of letting go and holding on to it You will learn when to do which and get more love in return than you ever know what to do with." Coveting the melody but she's a broken record The more I try to fix it, it ruins Now I sit back and I'm rocking onto its trembling music, amain I'm saying, 'Leave a message', my melancholy and pain Got me right off on my wings, and maybe I don't wanna fall again Maybe I don't wanna fall again Maybe I don't wanna fall again Woke up this morning, I went to bed at two My coffee mug's hit the fourth refill; a better brew (uh) A perfectionist writing songs 'til perfection hits He fell for imperfection hoping she'd make him a better dude Look, I've been stressing. Working hard till I get it I'm trying to love that man in the mirror holding up weapons I'm trying to throw my momma in rides, build her a mansion And tell her to wipe 'em tears, it is fine Not to keep stressing (look) Trauma pushing off, and the reasons you couldn't find, uh Laughing at the pane (pain) and the window throwing a light, huh Hoping that the sun would just come up and then would shine On the rain from yesterday and the puddles seem to be drying out Been off social media 'cause I needed time out Cut some people off like my connection's on a flight out They want me losing, I came from nothing, I'm choosy About the people I'm cool with, you do better when you find out It's midnight I feel trapped inside Looking back on myself in a different time Now I fight back Trying harder than ever but I know I can't outrun who I am (Who am I?) Trying to align myself in perfect symmetry (Perfect symmetry) Fading away as your definitions mold me Something deep inside of me knows this ain't the end (Knows this ain't the end) Greater things await me beyond where I stand I learned it hard, like (yeah) What is my vision trying to find now? Is it lurking for purpose? Or is it trying to immerse more into me loving myself? I'm doing fine now (uh) (Maybe) But lately, I don't know what's happening Wake up in the morning, working hard, and getting back at ten Bottled-up emotions, weight enough to break my shoulders Warm out in the streets but my mind keeps getting colder I don't know why I'm worried, sorrowed alone, and one moment I'm laughing off with peers, then I'm crying at four in the morning Grandma, I miss you, I swear Ain't been myself, I've been holding all of my crippled self Folding up often since you've been gone away to a better life Baa, hold me like when I was little They say the ones who love you are forever there, they're meant to stay But you've gone afar and 'till the day I see you there myself I hope the angels take care of you and I hope you're in a better place I hope you're in a better place I hope you're in a better place I hope you're in a better place, yeah, yeah I love you Rise out of nothing Bid goodbyes to malevolence Gon' fly beyond, above, and then shine free Godspeed Rise out of nothing Bid goodbyes to malevolence Gon' fly beyond, above, and then shine free Godspeed Rise out of nothing Bid goodbyes to malevolence Gon' fly beyond, above, and then shine free Godspeed Rise out of nothing Bid goodbyes to malevolence Gon' fly beyond, above, and then shine free Godspeed