Still Standin (The Pain) (feat. Jonathan Dalberiste & Tatyana Monestime)

Through all the heartache Through all the pain Through all the suffering And all the shame The pain couldn't hold me down And I'm still standing, yeah, I'm still standing By his father and mother he was abandoned With no concern for his safety, they left him stranded A life of hurt was the very thing he was handed My apologies, cuz I'm bout to be candid Everywhere he went he felt a shame alone And his explosive behavior made it be known Walked around as if he wanted to be left alone But he was really carrying the weight of being disowned He was a bark but no bite, he was all talk but no fight He was the biggest in height, but was the smallest in might Cuz of the shame from within, cuz how they always blamed him For their children's infractions, and for the bad that they did They just made him more upset, made him extremely heated Once again he was misunderstood and also mistreated With no one to turn to he felt overwhelmingly crushed Swimming in self-doubt, self-hate, and disgust Through all the heartache, Through all the pain Through all the suffering, And all the shame, the pain couldn't hold me down And I'm still standing, yeah I'm still standing Been through the fire, I'm not the same No longer bound, I'm forever changed And I am stronger now And I'm still standing, yeah I'm still standing Yeah, became a bully as his anger developed, matured Due to the emotional hurt he suffered and endured People thought he was tough, yeah that's what they assumed But he was guarded hidding those hurtful childhood wounds All he wanted was for an adult to truly care But to get compassion from the Zoes was extremely rare Practiced his mean mug so others would think that he was tough While praying and hoping no one would call out his bluff With limited guidance he almost always felt lost While having to front like he was some type of boss His defiance was an obvious major cry for help But all grandma did was beat his butt with the belt Feeling like an unwanted burden in his grandma's life Because of his mom's mistake she had to raise his twice He thought his life was worthless, with nothing there to gain But could you blame him cause he was shouldering so much pain Through all the heartache Through all the pain Through all the suffering and all the shame The pain couldn't hold me down And I'm still standing, yeah I'm still standing Been through the fire, I'm not the same No longer bound, I'm forever changed And I am stronger now And I'm still standing, yeah I'm still standing When he became an adult he processed his childhood trauma By becoming aware of the dysfunction and the drama That played his family in generations before him Making a covenant that the curse would end with him Committed to being the father that he never had Relishing in the moment when he would become a dad While being faithful being a one woman man Proudly buying and driving the family minivan His purpose was clearly birth by a deep place of hurt Swore that his kids would grow up knowing that value and worth And as he now contemplates, looks back and reflects He's content and believes everything worked for the best Now he educates the youth about the power of choice And how to rightly express their God given voice Even though he experienced a great amount of pain He is thankful because he uses it to spark a change Through all the heartache, through all the pain Through all the suffering and all the shame The pain couldn't hold me down And I'm still standing, yeah I'm still standing Been through the fire I'm not the same No longer bound, I'm forever changed And I am stronger now And I'm still standing, yeah I'm still standing Yeah, I'm still standing Come on, still standing Yeah, come on, come on Come on