Fred

I ain't trynna piss you mom, but I kinda miss my dad And I know, when it happened, yeah I was too young to understand You were always sad Wearing a faint smile, even when you laughed I could see it in your eyes Deep inside you wanna cry 'Cause of dad By the way, granny had a part to play I wasn't spying but she said everything right by that chair I overheard it then I knew it You would do it Benny, momma is calling you, she says that it's urgent so yeah, you better move it Well, as a nine year old I listened as you told All the woes On my nose Pouring, Victoria Falls Looking puzzled in a daze I know that it wasn't you Daddy was now set to move Momma you then told the news You tried to keep me sheltered from it but somehow it seems The harder that you try to do that, the more it just pushes me Memories growing up always flooding in like a sea I was listening to Nasty C Then I was like, I gotta do this You did not plan it to be this way, mom, listen to me I am not asking, or expecting you and pops to just, you know, get back together again Like it used to be before I was a teenager But then of course, everything always happens for a reason I guess it was never meant to be and it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is So don't you worry, rest your head and go to sleep I just wanna talk to Fred, just maybe 'bout a couple things Hello Fred, this your son, Benefit Fred I'm writing this song, lying in my bed Last night, I was watching that show, with Robin, Barney, and Ted And Marshall and Lily, and really it's silly But the gist is when Barney visited his dad Reminded me of that time me and mom Visited you and instead Of rejoicing and embracing me or sumn' You asked moms who I was 'cause you ain't recognize your son So hello Fred, it's your first son I'm now in college, hope you proud of me, I'm a prodigy, in my spare time I make songs And I been talking to your other kids Took me a little time to accept them, 'cause I ain't had a dad because well, they did And Fred, I don't resent you because you and moms broke up, you know? I don't know what happened between the two of y'all, and I don't wanna know Either of you could have been wrong, but if you wanna know Why I'm not your biggest fan, well, bro It's cause you ain't get to watch me grow And if I had kids somewhere out there in the world I'd at least, on occasion call I'd wanna go there and see how they doin for sho' So update, your oldest son is a mommas bwoy And I used to get mad when people called me this till this epiphany Who else's boy could I be when my daddy wasn't there for me? And sometimes I fear I'm not gonna make a great dad But now it's clear I'll just do the opposite of everything you did instead Benefit Fred, this your friend, Leo I read your text and my mind's also a cathedral The echoes deep diving It's like finding Nemo I got daddy issues too, guess we got a common Deebo But my momma been around for me Drama been a bouncy thing Trauma been arousingly showing up when I try to flee From this mind state that gets me wondering who I'm about to be But I'm not gonna waste time dwelling in these shadows B And so should you, stay true to yourself 'Cause It's only you that's living life for yourself Not another dude, that's only a fraction of yourself These are the same words that I used to say to myself Now I'm passing them to you on some brotherly love The inspiration you need, It's the past that made you who you are Now go out there and represent the kids like us Who're gonna be the best there ever was It's love