Childhood Traumas

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Jae the Lyoness

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As the tears run down my face and the pain running through my veins
As I drown from the tidal waves and no one is running in to save me
Just know I tried to heal my traumas daily
And if they come and ever try to take me
Just play my songs for every soul that's aching
And let my legacy rebuild the nation

Today I woke Up
Peeling the cover off the roof of my head
Another School day
A day that I dread
Wiping the crust out my eyes
Brushing my teeth and now my stomach's on fire
I often get it but I never know why
Putting my clothes on momma yelling Hurry up Be ready in 5
I go downstairs and the tears they just well in my eyes
I try to hide them and I'm good at it
Throw on my Jacket lace my Jordan's backpack on my shoulders
Momma grabbing my hand
Off to school and I'm feeling so sad
Cause these girls in my class they tease me and laugh
About my hair and the clothes that I wear
And I try to tell the teacher but
The teacher man she don't even care
I stay quiet and hope that I'm invisible here
I hate recess cause kids beat me up and I'm scared
Tryna make it through the day I can't wait for the bell
But at home it ain't safe for a child
I wish somebody save me

Who knew life would be so hard
Cut you deep and leave a scar
Pain so deep it breaks your heart
Wish I wasn't here no more
Who knew life would be so hard
Cut you deep and leave a scar
Pain so deep it breaks your heart
Wish I wasn't here no more
Today I woke Up
Yeah Today I woke up
Having the sun beam on my face
Today I woke up
Hearing the birds sing and play
Today I woke Up
Feeling caught up in a maze
Today I woke up
Yeah Today I woke Up
Yeah Today I woke up
Having the sun beam on my face
Today I woke up
Hearing the birds sing and play
Today I woke Up
Feeling caught up in a maze
Today I woke up

Schools over and I'm feeling depressed
Heart out of my chest
As my mother waits outside she's tapping her foot
I run over she proceeds to ask how was your day
I could tell her it was really bad
But she gets mad and often tells me to fight back
But if I fight back I'll get it worse
That's what she says when she often hurts me
Then gives me hugs and says it hurts her more
Than it hurts me
But that's a lie cause I'm covered in bruises
Mark the hangers and I'm left in my room
Nothing to do but to cry
I really hate here
I wish that I could make a family that loved
With a dad who won't leave me
And a mom who doesn't hate me
And understands my pain inside
But I smile and say Today was great
We walk home I put my bag away close my
Door and I sit and pray
Cause you never know if mommy's angry
Wish that God would come and make her happy

Who knew life would be so hard
Cut you deep and leave a scar
Pain so deep it breaks your heart
Wish I wasn't here no more
Who knew life would be so hard
Cut you deep and leave a scar
Pain so deep it breaks your heart
Wish I wasn't here no more
Today I woke Up
Yeah Today I woke up
Having the sun beam on my face
Today I woke up
Hearing the birds sing and play
Today I woke Up
Feeling caught up in a maze
Today I woke up
Yeah Today I woke Up
Yeah Today I woke up
Having the sun beam on my face
Today I woke up
Hearing the birds sing and play
Today I woke Up
Feeling caught up in a maze
Today I woke up

Life has been a struggle
Does it get any better
I pray to God and I wait for the answers like
Pastor taught
But I get nothing maybe mommy was right
Maybe I am a bad child and really God don't like me
Is that the reason he allows my pain
My cousins touched me in a nasty way
And I want to tell someone but I am too afraid
And I tried to tell Mom but she got mad at me
For something and my courage it is just went away
She calls me all kinds of names and I feel ashamed
Maybe she'll be better off with a different baby
And My daddy don't love me so he wouldn't miss me
And it's hard to make friends everyone just hates me
I grab a chair and my belt for school
Wrap it around the light fixture and stand on the chair
Wrap the belt around my neck and kick the chair
From my feet everyone should be happy that
I'm gone and I'm free

Who knew life would be so hard
Cut you deep and leave a scar
Pain so deep it breaks your heart
Wish I wasn't here no more
Who knew life would be so hard
Cut you deep and leave a scar
Pain so deep it breaks your heart
Wish I wasn't here no more
Today I woke Up
Yeah Today I woke up
Having the sun beam on my face
Today I woke up
Hearing the birds sing and play
Today I woke Up
Feeling caught up in a maze
Today I woke up
Yeah Today I woke Up
Yeah Today I woke up
Having the sun beam on my face
Today I woke up
Hearing the birds sing and play
Today I woke Up
Feeling caught up in a maze
Today I woke up

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